Never thought I would be on such a long hiatus.
I'mma gonna catch up with all the rear lights right in front.

 I have a friend whom I feel that she kinda wants to be like another friend. Whatever another friend has or does, she kinda has or does as well. Whatever that friend looks like, she kinda wants to be like her as well. Maybe it was really coincidental but I don't think so. I wonder what is the thrill in this. I'm really curious why she doesn't want to live her own life. I think she thinks people don't know. :O

Life is so monotonous these few weeks. Today I found out that the colour of the clothes that you wear can portray how you feel and affect how you feel. I think I should get more colorful clothing so I can feel much more than happy! Euphoric* HAHAAHA! Also, my favorite pair of foot wear spoiled! ): I wish I have my own walk in closet so I dont have to worry about such problems. Tomorrow I am left with a pair of hard as stone shoes with no socks. I'm prepared for blisters already. What a prick. Here are a few ugly faces that I have, might not be the ugliest but I think I can pass. (:

 When my world runs out of creative ideas, I have no problem in finding my motivation. Even when my inspiration disappears, you drive them back to me. During the moments where my puke raced with my tears, you were always there! I have never thought this could be so powerful. Side note, I think I should be more artistic. Maybe my blog looks cool with my face. I'm craving for peanut butter.

 Do you know that I refused to use an air conditioner in my room since young? That is because I learned that it kills trees. Do you know that I every time I get take outs, I never fiddle with the styrofoam boxes? Because I know it releases CFCs. Do you know that I hate hairsprays because they release CFCs too? I use wax even though it screws up my hair and tangles them like mad hays. Do you know that I have my own eco friendly bag to stuff my shopping goods?

That is because I am only 18, I don't want to die early with the selfish assholes on earth who doesn't give a shit about Global warming. I get pissed off because I can never be someone who can convince the world like some people try to. I don't understand what was the world created for, it confuses me a lot. Shouldn't someone die when they have to, and not die when the world went wrong? I'm not ready!

I was never a believer in the end of the world, everytime some article appears for the world to end in 2012, I would just roll my eyes slightly and tell everyone, 1999 was once, 2000 was once, when else? We should just live our lives like normal and beat it. It was only until a few 45 minutes ago that I realized that a tiny part of my mind actually believed in it. I had the worse 4 minutes in thoughts ever. I was talking to my friends when suddenly my dad complaint about the wind chimes in the hall. When I checked outside my windows, the leaves were flying everywhere, the trees were swaying like someone's butt when dancing salsa.

I'd swear that my thoughts ran wild. I had a first person who appeared in my mind thought and the things I regret the most at the moment. I guess it's always better to have a losing point that will push you until a point that you are thinking of what you have right now and not what you want right now. I guess I'm fine right now. It wasn't as bad as when the leaves flew as high as 8th storey. I guess I'm learning how to appreciate somethings that I have with me.

I've always had a boring time when i had to watch rugby, soccer and sometimes softball matches. It's pretty annoying but thank goodness the girls came along! They made time much better to spend. God, think of watching balls going into goalposts? I don't understand boys. Maybe.